our training

from the moment we come into the world we begin our training to live and learn. parents begin training their children to do the little things, and then we start training them to go to school. for 18 years we train them to become adults so they can go out and live their lives. what an amazing process. our whole lives are training to get to heaven whether we believe in HIM, or not; every knee will bow in to HIM.

"For it is written, “As I live, says the Lord, every knee shall bow to me, and every tongue shall confess to God.” romans 14:11


my husband had offering duty at our old church on sunday. our old pastor is very well known not only in the city, but in the country. he was doing a tribute for 9/11 and the security was tight at the church. a member went up to one of the guards and proceeded to tell the man that they could have spent all of that money on education in our state. just think if we didn't have that security and something had happend. i sometimes wonder if people forget that we are just as a vulnerable as the rest of world now after 9/11. we should be so grateful to those individuals that are willing to sacrifice their life to protect another. GOD gave them this training to do this humbly for others.

last week was huge a learning process for my husband and i in what GOD wants from us; the good and the bad. it was part of our training on living our lives to glorify HIM, and what HE has given us. what we witnessed as a couple last week was by far the most beautiful gift of humanity we have ever seen. it wasn't just the physical, tangible objects that were given it was the prayer and blessings that were given. the verse "love your neighbor as you would yourself" was everywhere around us. what a humbling and beautiful experience.

"You shall love your neighbor as yourself." matthew 22:37


the lessons learned will be with us for the rest of our lives on how we are to live our lives. we have been trained to do HIS job more fully now. i hope and pray that it is the same for everyone that was involved. such beautiful people in the world.

when i first started this journey the bigger picture was not known to me yet. i just read a quote that said that even though we let HIM in our life does not mean that it is going to be easy. i have learned that on too many occasions. I could have lost my faith HIM turned my back on HIM, it has only made me stronger and our home stronger. what MS has taught me about people is that they are good despite any fault they have. what MS has taught me about myself is that i am a good person regardless of any fault i have. what MS has taught me the most is that HE does exist because he gave me a burden that i will always have to face whether i want to, or not. HE will pull through. HE is my constant reminder of what is good and what is bad. i am accountable to HIM only.

there will be no way in my lifetime that i will be able to repay those that have helped me and my family over the years. when i am sick i literally do not have to do anything except get better. my parents work together to get their daughter well. my friends bring our meals, take care of our boys, do our laundry and send prayers up to GOD for healing. these individuals are so loved by us, and are so beautiful . they are the testament to the beauty of what GOD can do in our lives.

i have cried so many times with happiness that GOD gave me these individuals in my life. i look up to each one of these women, and their hearts. i can only hope and pray that i can be worthy enough to be the daughter my parents want, and be the friend to these women that i have been graced to have in my life.

i have a painting in my living room that a friend from high school painted. it is my favorite painting in my house. it is of a woman and her beauty. she is strong, beautiful, courageous, delicate, and humble just in her form. everyday i stare at this painting and i fall in love with it more. i am amazed at my friend's talent to be able to create something so beautiful for me to see everyday.

i will listen to HIM more now about what he wants. i am not going to ignore HIM the way i do sometimes. if HE wants me to do it i will do it. i can't ignore what HE wants in my life just because i am scared of the outcome. fear makes us forget HIM. it is always easier to give into sins then to fight the hard fight. all of these things that are happening around us that are hardships is our training. how we handle it is going to be what matters to HIM. what we are willing to do for another no matter what...that is love and HIM.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding." proverbs 3:

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