perfection

what is perfection? men and women want things to be perfect. that's not reality of course, but who defines it in your life? sometimes we become so obsessed with living out this perfect life that we can't see outside the box. we can't see that the only perfection in the world is GOD and none of us are GOD. my husband has the incredible gift of taking it day by day. that's probably why GOD put us together. he can make a choice and not think about it ever again. i make a choice and i fester on it for days or weeks. i worry too much he says and he's right.

GOD doesn't want you to worry or feel anxiety about the choices you've made, he wants you to move forward and learn from them. my husband gets that and it is one of those characteristics that i love most about him. see i worry so much that i make myself sick. i worry all the time, but why should i? it is a habit that is hard to break, but when i continue to do it when GOD has told me not to then i'm breaking the rules. everyday is a new day and you have to realize that with your imperfections GOD still loves you no matter what. if you are trying to live by his word to the best of your knowledge then you are ok in HIS eyes.

i've been thinking about my grandmother and my uncle a lot the last week. i miss them both and their wise words. both were so opposite and so different, but neither was wrong on how they lived. just different. my grandmother put GOD above all things no matter how brutal that truth could be to your ears. my uncle was the same way about saying what you didn't always want to hear. they both lived their lives according to what they felt was best for them. you can learn a lot from individuals like that. they didn't worry about the world's view of them, they just did what they had to do. i don't think they had many regrets, at least they never spoke of them that often, and if they did they just moved forward.

i've lost my focus on the little things and am constantly thinking about the bigger picture. i have had to reevaluate what GOD is asking me to do and what others think i should do. i was becoming trapped in this world of being perfect. i think we all fall into the trap of thinking that someone should be living one way or another, we don't think about that it may not be best for them.

over the last week i have been looking at a picture of my husband and i that was taken at our wedding. i have been thinking about marrying him and what we had forgotten with each other. we had forgotten why we married each other to begin with. when i look my husband i see a man that could move mountains if he wanted to. i see a man that provides everyday for his family and he takes that very seriously. i see a man that loves his wife because of who she is and all of her imperfections; what more could i ask for. i still love to watch him. i still love to see when he realizes just how incredible he is.

over the last couple of weeks he made me remember why he married me and i made him remember why i married him. that while were both not perfect we accept each other for who we are. marriage is hard enough that you don't need the added pressure of trying to change each other, just realizing that GOD made you different and that is the way HE wants you to be. who says that you need to be perfect; GOD doesn't.

"this righteousness from GOD comes through faith in JESUS CHRIST to all who believe. there is no difference, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of GOD, and are justified freely by the grace through redemption that came by JESUS CHRIST." romans 3:22-23