"Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle."
we all have secrets. we all have things that we want to bury inside that we are afraid to show about ourselves. we don't want the world to see our faults. our battles are the key to what sets us apart. what if the battle is whether or not you believe in the power of GOD. what if we are wrong and we don't accept HIM into our lives, but still go to heaven? what if we just live each day to the fullest without any regard to how we are living it, and then HE is there to confront you about it?
how do we change our hearts? i could say how do we change some one's heart, but we can't do that only GOD can. i'm not scared of scripture, but more about the reaction of scripture to others in all of these years of reading it. i have been testing myself lately and my faith in HIM. i want to make sure that i do have the strength to fight for HIM. i find that i can fight my MS a lot easier than i can defend scripture. i don't think i'm as strong as i thought i was.
this new phase, or whatever i am going through is actually kinda driving me crazy. i have been a little overwhelmed with life lately. i don't know what is going on with me, but i'll get through it. i'm searching for so much more, and believe it or not HE is giving it to me. i was too sheltered in my walk - i wasn't leaving the comfort zone of my church. my fear is if i leave it too much will i be able to serve HIM in my life.
every time i write a posting i put it on facebook. the first time i did it i was terrified. i was so afraid of the backlash of it. each time i post it i'm afraid. i think that when you know people from 20 years ago you assume that it is still them and they haven't changed. i just found that HE had been missing in my heart. i think though the fear of being judged by another for our beliefs is a much stronger fear than just letting HIM in. i find that individuals that don't believe judge just as much as the ones that do believe. it's people that turn us from GOD not HIM.
the idea that you are a "perfect" person is false. the only perfect person that has walked this earth is CHRIST. we put so much pressure on those that are christians to be perfect and we shouldn't. christians judge others far too harshly that haven't accepted HIM. the question really should be why haven't they or why are we so intent on judging others around us? if it feels so right why would we ever try to justify it to anyone? if you believe that it is the correct way to live then why would you care so much about defending it to another? that's what i wonder.
do i believe that we will go to heaven without accepting HIM; no. do i believe that we will fail time and time again; yes. i don't know what's worse; not being humble enough to admit that you fail, or that you think that you don't. my heart is whole because of HIM. no one has done that for me including my husband. if we need validation, or need to feel all the time that our life is worthy from others than maybe it's you that isn't content. GOD knows your heart.
always question, always search for the meaning behind what the church or another christian is saying to you. read the bible and learn the words for yourself. when i was first diagnosed a christian told me that the devil had given me this disease and that's not true. CHRIST gave me this and i know why HE did. question your battles, because HE just may be trying to show you something about yourself that you have chosen to be blind to.
"6 Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord. 7 For we live by faith, not by sight. 8 We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord. 9 So we make it our goal to please him, whether we are at home in the body or away from it. 10 For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, so that each of us may receive what is due us for the things done while in the body, whether good or bad." 2 corinthians 5:6-10
“Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven." matthew 7:21
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