doors close, doors open

i look at my life this way now no matter how much i want to return to the door that has been closed. when things seem so far out of reach, or just plain out of control, everything seems to fall into place one way or another at some point. i haven't exactly agreed with every door that GOD has opened for me, but i can understand now why HE would open it and close the others.

my husband and i have been struggling with what to do with a great gift that was given to us. the amazing part about it is that it is something that i have been praying for, for a long time. we want to be wise with this gift, but we also are dealing with the pressure of what to really do with it. we have been given something that would actually be a huge burden lifted from us. society is telling us one way to use it, but GOD is really telling us something different.

GOD answers our prayers period. HE is always going to give us what our hearts really need when we turn to HIM for guidance. i have found though that it isn't always what i wanted, but it was for the best. in the long run i have to give this to HIM also. i have to believe that HE will give us the right choice as long as we follow HIM. i am having to heed some of my own advice and that of others; if it doesn't feel right then it's not right.

so now the praying begins on what to really do. right now he is saying "slow down, look at the bigger picture, and i will guide you." if my husband and i are to live a christian life, we are to listen to HIS words fully. the book of proverbs gives countless verses on wisdom and discernment. this morning HIS voice came to me fully and said "i gave you the gift for one reason, but your are trying to use it for another."

what a huge burden lifted right there. my husband and i both made a decision to slow down and take a breath. we both realized that we were pushing ourselves to make a decision that didn't need to be made this week, next week, or a month from now.

all i know is that we will make the decision that GOD wants us to. we will make the decision that is right for our family. we will both have to seek more wisdom from CHRIST and our mentors as to what to do. in the end, it will be what GOD wants us to do.

5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight. proverbs 3:5-6