Saturday, May 28, 2011

what we all want

i had stopped watching oprah a long time ago before she ended her show this past week. my mom and i watched the last show and oprah said something that stuck with me. she said that all people want validation. i agree with that and i believe all individuals want acceptance, forgiveness, love and kindness. when CHRIST came HE did not die for just a few, but HE died for all of us.

one of me and my husband's greatest desires is that all individuals feel welcome in our home; that they feel accepted. we want our children to be that way with others. we want them to grow up with kindness and compassion in their hearts for others. we don't agree with all of our families and friends decisions, but we do accept them for who they are. they feel the same way about us, so it's equal i hope.

i have not always been kind in my life, or been accepting. i can still fall short of what HE has asked me to do. i just have to move forward and hope to do better the next time. sharing our stories is what makes us human. i have been thinking about our first year and half of marriage. it was the worst year and half of our marriage and we both agree on this. i have been thinking about what GOD did for us that year and half; HE healed us.

physically you would never know i was sick, but everyday i either have extreme pain or it's just dull enough that i can get through my day. you just have to deal with it. the emotional and physical toll that this has taken on me and my husband is a lot to ask of anyone, but it has made us stronger. i really did not believe we were going to make it, but we did. our church brought us back together and the strength of HIS will. i pray that people can find a place, or their hearts go to GOD so they can know this joy.

when paul went to the churches he wasn't rebuking the christians that were trying to uphold GOD's laws he was rebuking those that become too self-righteous in there journeys. scripture is not about judging an individual it is about making individuals aware that we are all capable of sin. in the old testament the bible says though shall not commit murder, but CHRIST says that if anyone is angry with his brother he will be guilty. christians and non-christians are guilty of the judgement of one another. all men and women will bow to HIM in judgement. (matthew 5:21-48)

over the years i have had many "self-righteous" moments in my journey. one person sticks out in my mind the most where i failed to be a friend to them. i turned my back to them because i thought i was better than them. not that i have done what they did, but because i just couldn't get past my judgement of them and be there for them. i think that maybe my time with HIM lately hasn't been about becoming stronger in my journey with HIM it's been about becoming too self-righteous in my journey with HIM.

4 and said to Jesus, “Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. 5 In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?” 6 They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him.
But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. 7 When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” 8 Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground.
9 At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there. 10 Jesus straightened up and asked her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?”
11 “No one, sir,” she said.
“Then neither do I condemn you,” Jesus declared. “Go now and leave your life of sin.”

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