the journey

i have started reading the letters of paul to the churches. i am inspired by his walk and mission to spread the word of CHRIST. i like how he speaks of GOD'S love and grace. i like his direct approach to teaching the words of GOD and holding those that have confessed that CHRIST is their saviour accountable. next to CHRIST this is the man that i would like to meet and talk with the most.

i go through phases in my ms. i long to really forget that i have it, or to even deal with it. many days i wish that it wasn't there for me to have to confront. i have balance with it, or i just really push myself to ignore it. i started thinking how we do this with the words of GOD; the rules. really we do this with almost anything that it is too hard to cope with; we ignore it. i find that it is much easier to cope with GOD than the world. at least you know where you stand with him; no hidden agendas, no hidden thoughts, and you can trust HIM.

i think with any challenge we tend to either look at it head on, or just allow the challenge to overwhelm us. what i find interesting in most situations with individuals that haven't turned to CHRIST is that they are worried about GOD condemning them, but GOD is not going to condemn you the world will condemn you.

more and more attacks are popping up about GOD, christianity and the church. hawkins whom is a known atheist just recently said that christianity is a fairy tale; a myth. i just read an article that said the books in the new testament were forged. bill maher for years has said that christianity is the biggest joke ever played on humanity. of course to me this is just ignorance, but to those that have never read the bible it could make a lot sense to them.

i think the hardest thing for individuals to accept is that CHRIST comes first above everything. we can't physically see HIM, so how could that be possible. how could HE come above your family, how could we choose HIS way above society, or how could we even choose HIM above our children? i have to believe that we all know there is something larger and greater than ourselves.

when i was diagnosed it was about the ms that brought me to HIM, but in the end that wasn't the real reason. i had regrets, guilt, anger, fear, bitterness, grudges, you name it i had it. that was the reason HE brought to me HIM; to heal my heart. no one had been able to do that before, not even my husband. if it's fear that won't allow us to go to HIM because we're afraid of being condemned by HIM then please don't. i think maybe we should fear being condemned by the world more.

"Brothers and sisters, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. 27 But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. 28 God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, 29 so that no one may boast before him. 30 It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God—that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption. 31 Therefore, as it is written: “Let the one who boasts boast in the Lord." 1 corinthians 1; 26-31